Oldies, but Goodies!

There will never in a million years be another film like Disney's Beauty and the Beast! A tale as old as time, a song as old as rhyme, this movie GETS ME EVERYTIME! I have probably watched this it a bajillion times and have never gotten through the entire movie without crying. A gorgeous but, quirky only daughter of a eccentric, French inventor meets her Prince charming after years of boredom in a small, provincial town. An unconventional love story, but a beautiful one nonetheless! I know all the lyrics, scenes, and costumes by heart! The saddest part of your youth (each individual) is that you have to look back and wonder "WHY CAN'T DISNEY MAKE MORE CLASSIC FILMS LIKE THIS?" I mean you have Beauty and the Beast, Aladdin, The Little Mermaid, The Lion King, I could go on forever! I feel for the children of the Millennium with their Spy Kids, Wall-E's, and Madagascar's, fore they will never truly experience the wonderment, magic, and beauty of Disney's greatest film moments. Thankfully, DVD/Blue-Ray combo packages offer up quite a variety of Disney classics that will instantly transfer them back to 1954, 1970, 1988, or 1991. I was so saddened by VHS, Beauty and the Beastless lifestyle, that my 25 year old, grown ass ran out to the nearest Wal-Mart at 1:33 am to grab the 3 disk, Blue-Ray combo pack with special behind the scenes footage and of course, the feature film. It was one of the best purchases I have made all year! Now, I can have a lil bit of my former, 5 year old, 90's self in 2011 and right through 2012! This new year is looking better than ever!

Patience is a Virtue

Recently, I have been canoodling with a man that is as complicated as he is attractive. We argue but, have some of the most passionate discussions ever. I love it and hate it at the same time. Needless to say, I have such a splendid with him and for that I am thankful! Now, our greatest debate recently has been over timelines. Timelines in the sense of marriage, relationships, titles, and so much more. Mainly, the title changing from just dating to BOYFRIEND and GIRLFRIEND. His stance is that the only thing that matters is the love, attraction, and the connection shared between the two people. I for one, totally agree, those things are vital, but I do believe you should not rush. I have rushed through tests (never got a grade higher than a B minus), rushed through studying (never remembered ANYTHING), and rushed though dating before (hence why I am currently single). I think there is something special in knowing that the patience you possess can allow you to delve even further into the individual you're cruising. Besides, I never absorbed anything from the things I rushed doing such as studying, tests I rushed taking, or the people I rushed to date. When I was bigger (weight wise), I ate everything so fast because food did not hold significance in my life anymore. I got fat, wasted money, and I DIDN'T EVEN ENJOY THE FOOD! Now that I have lost weight, I have gained a new appreciation for food. I savor every single bite. In turn, I appreciate the content, preparation, and the nutrients. I feel the same rules should apply to relationships and dating. The more time spent, the more your mouth waters for it, you crave it, and hopefully appreciate it more than anything you have ever possessed. The thing is that when you find that certain food, person, or amazing item you enjoy so much taking the time to observe it, feel it, and enjoy only makes your heart grow fonder. SO CHEERS TO ONE OF THE MOST POPULAR YET UNATTAINABLE VIRTUES, PATIENCE! What would life be without it? RUSHED AND BORING!

The Big Nickel

25 is said to be one of the most exciting birthdays ever! A quarter of a century old and yet still so young! I love this age because you are finally not too old, yet not too young at the same time. It is quite exhilarating! This year has been one of many highs and MAJOR lows. Deaths, health scares, money discrepancies, and so much more but, I would not trade it for anything in the world because for the first time in my life, I am completely on track to where I need to be. I anticipate that despite lows, 25 is the beginning of true greatness. I can never say I do not know how to behave, what to want, where I have been, hell even where I am going. All I can ask God is how high? How high can you take me because I truly want to reach the TIP TOP! Thank you 25, just the breath of fresh air I needed!

The Relationship Visa: don't overstay on it!

I got invited to view a free screening of a new film coming out called Like Crazy last night. It was quite a movie to say the least. A cute college couple meet an untimely change in their relationship when the girl is deported for overstaying her visa. This throws them into an unwanted international relationship where they must write, text, call, and do everything but, physically be together. This relationship and movie got me thinking about my future and past. I have had my share of long distance relationships (more than I ever wanted) and I have to say, CALLING IT TOUGH IS AN UNDERSTATEMENT! It is simply put, torture. Never being near that person, no date nights, and feeling lonely all the time are just some of the things you experience. My last major long distance relationship was to result in marriage, but never got there. We could not shake the troubles of our own personal lives to progress to that next level of "til death do us part." I still have not completely gotten over my failed marriage to be. Maybe I never will and this movie reminds me so much of my relationship because they kept going through these incredible bouts of emotional tug of war. When they are together they are happy, a part they are miserable, they date new people and still aren't happy and so much more. The relationship finally comes full circle at the end, but it is too late. They have both overstayed their relationship visas and are now out of love and in an intense gray area of confusion. It is so sad to see love get to this place, but like the movie, such is life. I don't know if I have seen too many happy endings but, I left disappointed. I, being a girl, wanted their marriage and love to be the greatest of all time and reality saw different. I was sad, but I guess I will get over it and maybe even understand it, like in my own life, hopefully.

Sarah Mclachlan-Train Wreck

Heartbeats and Heartbreaks

Every time I have an epiphany, I question my actions and behavior. Where did this all start? How did I get here? What can I do to fix this feeling if it is not a good one? Etc, etc. One thing that always happens is my heart beats rapidly, almost like it will burst out of my chest. I cannot handle this feeling at that moment, I drop to my knees and ask God to guide me because I am clearly lost. I have been having many epiphanies lately. I am not sure if this is a good thing, but I will assume it isn't a bad thing. I have learned a lot this week. I have learned that sometimes the better person gets the job/position, money isn't going to make itself, men ARE all the same, and YOU are the only one you can blame for YOUR failures. We all have imminent control over our lives, so anyone or thing that threatens that existence, it is up to us to expell them from our lives. I have grappled with a tough decision and after much heartbreak and pain, I have to end one relationship in my life. I am deeply saddened by this decision because I never saw it coming, but maybe it was fate. I am not sure, but I deserve to be happy too. If an epiphany and heartbeats make me rethink my actions in the future and make better decisions, I WILL GLADLY TAKE ONE EVERYDAY OF THE WEEK!

Such a f**kin lady!

I have this thought lingering in my head lately. I really want to reach for the stars, but I am afraid that I might not get there, so I back off. I stay neutral and push my dreams to the back burner. Now, I realize that I am getting old. It is time to conquer these dreams. I am going to become a STAND UP COMEDIENNE! WISH ME LUCK!