Every now and again a person so gets so burned out they need to reinvent themselves: find the new them. The new you is actually not new, it has always been there, you have just been to busy to pay attention. You have either been working the many jobs you have throughout the year or raising kids, or attending school. No matter what the reason is, never let the new you suffocate. I had to learn this lesson the hard way.
Roughly one week ago, I had a full blown panic attack on the way to my second job. I pulled over and could not breathe for what seemed like an eternity (really it was 3 minutes). I cried profusely and asked God to help me because I was clearly not seeing straight and was lost in the shuffle. I had just left one job and started a new one. The new job seems promising, but with any new job is a certain level of anxiety. That anxiety can often get the very best of us: it certainly got the best of me at the very moment.
I had a decision to make: was I going to let the stress of adulthood and confusion of what direction to go, get the best of me? I decided the day after that I was not longer going to be a victim of my own excuses. I am going to get back to cooking, working out, writing, traveling, and just LIVING FOR ME! I need to stop and smell the roses. No more double shifts for my two jobs, I will eventually get to where I want to go, but I cannot rush anymore.
It is time for some major changes in my life and it starts now! Starting July 1st, I am juicing for 2 weeks and eating raw. I am going to try my best not to eat processed or fast foods for the month. I want to reinvent my soul as well. I have committed to going to church at least twice a month. I am going to take small trips to little, local places like a theatre I've never been to and I am going to start hiking. It is time out for excuses and time to start thinking about investments. They say, you only get what you put into something. It is time to put more energy and focus into Oriel, so I can truly be content. After all, that is all any of us wants in life anyway!